Anxiety

Once again . It’s like an unintended guest that demands attention over and over. 

I think anxiety is a bitch. 

I’d like for her to go away and never come back. 

She comes at random times. Like in the San Francisco airport or during a massage of all places. 

Like what the hay? 

She has robbed me of so many precious moments I my life. 

I wonder what she is actually trying to do. Like what does she really want? Perhaps I could ask her and maybe her elephant weigh...

“Write it for you.”

This is what I keep hearing for the last few weeks. 

I have felt inspired to write for over two months, even pulled an oracle card encouraging me to pour my words out on paper- but I have seen myself get distracted by everything and anything else.

Maybe it is because I don’t know how to write it for myself. 

I’ve never done it. 

Even now, I will most likely post this to my blog to help me preserve this experience for me in all its sacred juiciness- the up’s the down’s- t...

…As I depart Denver from a visit with my incredible son and daughter in law, once again I am reminded that the most magical moments are the ones that aren’t planned. 

In my former self, I had to plan everything down the daily agenda because it helped my frazzled and overburdened nervous system to feel safe. 

But once I dialed that in, calmed and turned down the cortisol and adrenaline dump, I learned how to relax into the moment. 

As we navigated through Denver, my favorite magic moments were...